I’ve been holding in my feelings for I don’t know how many year…but days like this when I feel.like o have no one cause all everyone cares about is their self even my family! I didn’t realize that my family would soon grow into a every man for themself life. I really wish I was prepared because now im sitting here on the floor crying about it thinking about how much I just don’t want to be here…or anywhere for that matter :/ it’s a sad and depressing thought but sometimes you can’t help the thoughts that are going throughout tour head! By no means am I saying that i’m leaving this world tonight but I can tell you that I am over thinking my life right now& that is not a good Idea…i’m at my breaking point I can feel it! I’m this king of stuff I did or am doing wrong or not thinking about and o balling mt eyes out I can’t do this. .

Sorry that i’m not the most confident. Sorry that i’m not pretty as the other girls! Sorry that i’m beyond weird. Sorry that i’m not as thin as the other girls! Sorry that i’m comparing myself! Sorry that i’m pitting myself down. Sorry that i’m unorganized/messy. Sorry that I don’t dress-up everyday for school. Sorry that it comes off as me letting myself go! Honestly though i’m not confident therefore I don’t see myself as being “Beautiful”. I just see myself as the girl with the weird smile and the bigger waste line, with the interesting/annoying personality Sorry that I came off as rude when you first meet me! Why am I apologizing for things that I don’t like about myself? Who knows, who honestly cares! It may seem as if i’m looking for attention, but luckily for me no one who follows me goes to my school! By the way attention is absolutely not what I am seeking…right now my life is spiraling my family is messed up along with my brain/mentality! :/ Goodbye for now